So, I decided to do our own taxes this year instead of paying someone else to do them. How hard can it be, right? I mean Kathy does it and so does my friend Brittany. In fact they are both always saying it’s so easy.

Brittany gave me a web address for a place you can do your taxes for free. I got myself all ready to go take care of business…then I looked at the folder Matt put together with all the papers and I began to panic! Imean, how am I ever going to keep these papers straight. If I don’t even know what the papers are then what in the world am I doing trying to do my own taxes alone with some free service on-line. My anxiety started climbing….climbing…and climbing…until I was re-reading stuff 5 times or more! (Might I add that we were still in the first section that was simply asking for name, social, marital status, occupations…..and ummm if either one of us are completely or partially blind.. Yeah, I didn’t really understand this question. Well, anyway, I gave up about an hour ago cuz I was stressing too much. I hadn’t even ran into anything I didn’t know the answer for…well I didn’t know Matt’s social, but that was fairly easy to find…so yeah….

Hopefully I can work the courage up again to finish…although at this point I’m thinking fat chance considering how nervous I am with what is probably the EASIEST section! I’m just all nervous cuz I’m afraid I’ll do it wrong or screw ourselves over some much needed tax return money. I don’t want to let Matt down either. AAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!! I can do this….I can do this…I can do this…I can’t do this….I can’t do this…I can’t do this!!!! AAAHHHH!!!!!!

Joan, finally called me today…apparently her boss wants a resume from me before she gives the go ahead…now I’m nervous…Joan seemed flustered and anxious to get me started when she was telling me about Kathi. She would have liked it if Kathi had just said yes last week and we were on our way….I guess her and I both are a lil anxious now… I really got to start bringing some money home. I’ve started feeling a lot more anger towards Josh and Stacey again lately. Mostly about the money, so it would def. be in my best interest to get this all fixed before I let it eat me up inside. Sometimes I wish they were right in front of me and I was screaming at them. Oh, and what do I say on the resume about my last 7 1/2-8 months!? I can’t put their number down. They’ve screwed me over in so many different ways…

MY COMPUTER IS BROKE!!! The end of the world is upon us! At least I have my full warranty still…That lasts until Sept. Hopefully my computer will be as good as new by this weekend….(crossing fingers….and holding breath…)

My Current Feelings:

Anxious
Panicy
Angry
Discouraged